Day Nineteen.

I had a doctors appointment today, and addison behaved. i was so glad. the last thing i wanted was a screamy whiney baby while the doctor is trying to listen to my heartbeat and whatnot. i have a weird red circle on my arm that will NOT go away. my mom gave me some stuff to put on it but that made it bigger and worse. he said its a patch of excema. but i only partially think hes right. i dont have a regular doctor, so i just see whoever is available at the multicare clinic. and of course i happened to have to see the doctor i'm not a huge fan of. once he gave me a prescription for prozac.... because i had a cold for 3 weeks and i guess he didnt believe me or something, i dont know. but hes weird. hes like 4 and a half feet tall so i feel like i am towering over him, and i'm only 5'4. soooo i'm not really tall. and he barely speaks english, his hands are always cold, he pulled on my red spot so then it hurt, AND he talks super quiet.

after the doctor appointment i went to the car wash, bad choice. that began addisons day of baby meltdowns. she cried during the car wash, all throughout the drive home (about 20 min), then finally fell asleep when i was getting off the freeway but i had to stop at walgreens for my prescription, she slept at walgreens but woke up when the person paging someone else decided it would be a great idea to yell over the loudspeaker, then i fed her and left with my prescription... meltdown #2 happened about an hour later.... then meltdown # 3 another hour later. i finally got her to fall asleep and had to slowly sit down in the glider chair only to realize the remote and my phone were across the room. so i was stuck watching millionaire and an infomercial for a shark vacuum. then i had enough and slowly went and got the remote and my phone. she took an hour and a half nap on my lap. she even went to bed early tonight too, at 820! she was rubbing her eyes and getting a little fussy so i think i will just go to bed a little early tonight too, just in case she decides its time to party at 6am. a tired mommy is not a happy mommy. days like this are days where i really wish michael was here.

i think i'll get my coffee ready tonight for the morning too. plan for the worst, its my thing.

the dogs are driving me insane tonight. if their kennels werent in addisons room, that is exactly where they would be. at the moment they are being good, but an hour ago? no. i heard on tv that pet owners experience less anxiety and have lower blood pressure than non pet owners.... today i think they were wrong. i am not a happy pet owner tonight.

goodnight husband. (since i know youre reading this.)