Day Fourteen.

Today marks the worst day of the year, maybe the second. I think the day he actually goes to Africa it might be harder. But, it can only get better after that, right? I know some days will be easier than others, and as the year goes on i will get stronger. But its already so hard. Now i know i won't be seeing him in a week. He's not just in san antonio anymore. He is still stateside, yes. But not HERE. I can honestly say i dont know when i will see him again, and thats the hardest part to wrap my brain around. Not to mention my girl emotions. I cant even really put into words how i feel about that, about not knowing when i will see the person who i love the most in the entire world. well, besides addison :) Speaking of addison, I told her that she needs to be good today, and so far she isn't really cooperating. But thats what i get for waking her up early to bring Michael to the airport.

Yesterday went by too fast. Its not fair that he only got to be home for one day.

I need to buy some kleenex. In a Costco size amount. i don't really want to go to the store though. I probably would be walking around crying like last time. I might try to go for a little walk sometime today. I was going to earlier, so i fed Addison... then she decided it was naptime.

I've been thinking today was sunday. all day i have thought that. wow.

So we went on a walk on the trail that is down the street from our house since its such a nice day out. We walked around the loop twice, i would have gone another time but Addison's little hands were cold so we called it a day. When we got home, i brought her inside and put her carrier on the sofa while i went back out to pull my jeep into the garage... when i got done with that she was asleep! The outdoors must have worn her out! This is from today:

I'm going to dinner and a movie with the in-laws tonight, i'm looking forward to it. I need to get out. Plus its mexican food... = THE BEST KIND OF FOOD EVERRRR! i could eat mexican food every single day. but then i would weigh about 400 lbs. no bueno.

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okay now its past midnight and i'm tired. so this is the end. i put addison to bed unswaddled tonight, not because i really wanted to, but because she was asleep in her carseat from the drive home and i didnt want to wake her up too much to put her in the swaddleme. lets hope she sleeps well, because her momma needs some sleep.

Goodnight, 4 followers :)
even though i KNOW i have more.