Day Fourty One.

i didnt get to talk to michael today. and surprisingly, i'm okay. i am of course sad, but i havent cried yet. with each passing day i get a little bit stronger. but sometimes i fall back a step or two on my not so good days. and i think that is perfectly acceptable.

addison was testing my patience once again today. which sucked because i was liking the happy baby i have had for the past 3 or so days! she was having a high maintenance day, which always falls on the days that i just want some alone time on the couch. its okay though, i forgive her. she just needed her momma today.

i did some more packing and brought some stuff to sarahs house again tonight. mostly just michaels clothes/army stuff that he wont need for the next year-ish. also some kitchen stuff. nothin exciting :) OH! when i got to sarahs i was pleasantly surprised to see that my amazon package had arrived! it just had some vinyl polka dot stickers for addisons new room, and a polka dot picture frame. that reminds me, i have a few black collage style picture frames that i think i am going to paint over with brown... i hope it works. because black totally doesnt go with her new room.

i made some soup for dinner but its too hot for me to eat right now, unless i want to burn my face off. which i dont today. so its just sitting next to me, taunting me. and i can smell its deliciousness.

either tomorrow or monday, i am going to ikea to get a bed frame, dresser, and a couple of rugs. i'm really not a huge fan of ikea furniture but i figure for the next year or so, it'll work.

you want to know what made me happy but sad at the same time today? too bad because i'm telling you. snow patrol. i love snow patrol, BUT they made me sad because at our wedding i walked down the aisle to one of their songs.

someone kind of annoyed me the other day. she was saying how she "totally knows how i feel" about michael being gone, because her boyfriend lives in idaho. um. thats not the same. thats not even close. it is 505 miles from seattle to boise. and its like 10,000 miles to djibouti. small difference. i tried to google map directions from seattle to djibouti but it wouldnt let me.. so i had to calculate by using my hand as a 3k mile marker. google failed me for the first time ever. i am now rethinking our relationship. google, i am disappointed in you.

man, this soup is delicious.