Bandaids.

i'm pretending, and thats all i can do. i pretend to be happy even when i'm not. i pretend to have fun, even when i'm not. i'm finding it easier and easier to fake it. whats that saying, fake it til you make it? i'm becoming a pro.

i mean, dont get me wrong. i'm not bummed out all the time. i'm not bummed out right now, i'm in a good mood at the moment. i'm just sayin. i think maybe if i pretend for long enough, i'll finally trick myself into having a good day every day. not just on occassion.

addison has a doctors appointment today: shots. ugh. that means i'll have a grumpy baby allllll day. and possibly tomorrow. boo to that. not a fan. but i'll get some new measurements of her and thats exciting. my guess is she weighs closer to 20lbs than 15lbs.

tomorrow i am getting my hair done. wait, i mean... i'm getting my hurr did. no. i'm not that gangsta. i tried... i dont even know what i'm gonna have done, but my sister bought me a gift certificate to a salon so its time for some momma time.

i am running a marathon. its 2 days before my birthday, which sucks. because that means i cant go out and have a bday party the friday beforehand, the marathon is saturday june 25. my birthday is the 27th. so i dont want to be all sore and tired still on my birthday! i dont know. still deciding.

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addison is 18.9lbs, 85th percentile. height is 27in, 80th percentile. head is (huge) 17 3/4in, 90th percentile. she got 5 shots today :( poor baby. at least this time she got pink bandaids.

so i think i'll have better days once summer gets here. hurry up april and may. ugh. i need some vitamin d in my life. more than just my time in the tanning bed, haha.