life.

it sucks when someone who you thought was suppose to be one of your best friends is so mean to you and doesnt even realize it. this person has been making passive aggressive, snarky comments about my life and my parenting decisions for the past 9+ months. in reality, probably our whole lives but i never noticed it that much up until now.

a little background before i go into my story. i wasnt able to breastfeed addison, and i am 100% totally okay with that. i tried and tried, my sister even bought us an expensive pump thinking that could help. we tried for 6 weeks, and at the 6 week mark i threw in the towel. my body said "no thank you!" to breastfeeding. i really think its because i wasnt very kind to my body growing up. as you know, i have eating disorder issues, and i have come to the conclusion that my body wont produce enough milk because of it. and again, i am totally fine with it. so that being said... i have backed up my decision to formula feed her since day one of making the full transition. and so has my family, and my husbands family. they have all been supportive and i never once heard a peep about how i should try harder, or how breastmilk is best. my child was being fed and thats all that really matters.

since i didnt breastfeed, other people were able to feed addison and i was/am so incredibly grateful for that.

so now, insert the dramatic music and the formula vs breastmilk debate. i honestly couldnt care less how or what you feed your baby. your life, not mine. i am not gonna worry about your parenting decisions or preach to you about what you "should be" doing. each person and each baby are different. end of story.

this friend of mine posted on facebook (of course) about how proud she is and how smart her baby is after one week (!) of being able to breastfeed. other people commented things like "yay!" "what did she do?" and she replied that the baby is getting the hang of breastfeeding, like it requires an award and maybe even a parade. then, all i said was this: formula isn't bad, you know...." that is all i said. literally. and this is where she jumps in like "i never said it was..." but add about 2 paragraphs being defensive. then another friend of mine, (who i went to Ellen with, twice.. hint hint.) commented a nice long novel about how breastfeeding is amazing and all, but dont rule out formula because life doesnt always go as planned. then that somehow turned into us two proformula-ers attacking this "friend" of mine. how, i dont know. then i commented "in addition, formula wouldnt be sold if it wasnt safe. breastfed babies arent "better" than formula babies". thats all i said. word for word. and quite a few people jumped down my throat about how i am a terrible friend and how i should be proud and how this "friend" should be allowed to share her excitement. where in any of that is me being rude, mean, or not happy?? i dont see it.
the next day i text said friend: i think you took what i said the wrong way, so i am sorry for the misunderstanding.
and she text me 7 messages basically saying that if she took it the wrong way "then so did at least 5 of my friends who messaged me saying why are my friends tag teaming me" and how i am a bad friend because i am not proud of her. and that "if formula is so safe then how come you had recalled formula that had bugs in it?" (remember that similac issue from about 15 months ago...)

i feel as though i did my part. i said i was sorry. and she reacted like that, so be it. the ball is in her court now.

oh, and i also stand by my decision to use disposable diapers. gasp.

i would like to add my two cents in. and i apologize for it in advance.

i couldnt give a flying piece of fudge about what you do with your life or how you parent. and that is how it should be.
yeah, we had recalled formula. recalls happen. with EVERYTHING.
"because i fed her formula" is my new joke when addison does something silly.
your baby wont be taken better care of than mine.
this isnt a competition. but really, my child is cuter.
i cant wait to say "i told you so."