life drama.

so i have some life updates about candice. she wants to be my friend again, but i dont think i am willing to risk my sanity to be her friend. yes, i love her and care for her... but.... i cant handle the drama. i cant handle the ups and downs of our friendships.

there was a shooting at muckleshoot, in the dancing area, and she frequents there often. so i text her to just say i hope she wasnt there and i hope she is okay. she replied with "whos this?" so i shrugged it off as her being a B.

heres our conversation::
candice: i just looked in my old phone to see whos number this was. no i wasnt there. crazy ex husbands at a casino. lol. i just inboxed you today. thought of you.
me: i'm glad you werent there.
c: could you imagine if we were there doing the offickaly dance and getting shot. we might of made headlines.
me: now i look like an idiot walking thru southcenter laughing to myself.
c: hahaha i do all the time. i truley miss you. nobody can replace our dumbness.
me: i miss our friendship too.
c: i think we need a reunion. an offickaly one.
me: you stopped being friends with me, remember.... and i dont even know why.
c: i didnt mean to like that. i just got frustrated that you never wanted to hang out anymore and i figured i did something but instead of talking to you about it i hate confrontation so i avoided it.
me: fair enough. i can understand why you were frustrated, but there was so much going on with my life. my sister in law was mad at me like the week before we stopped being friends, i had a wedding the last weekend you wanted to hang out, my husband was somewhere out in the desert, my baby was sick. etc. it was too much.
c: no i know. i should have been a better friend and supportive to what you were going thru and i'm sorry for that. i should have talked to you but i hate telling someone when something bothers me. but... i know you would of understood.
me: i care about you and always will :)
c: yay :) same here. i'm going to the track friday. my parents have a horse racing. i'll have the kids with me if you want to bring your little girl.
me: i cant, i already have movie plans.
c: bummer. we should meet up at a park or something.
me: okay.
c: i'm trying to get my real tan on but i'm so impatient.

then we talked about tanning for like 4 texts then i stopped texting her because i was driving. when i got home i sent her this:
me: i am kind of having a hard time knowing what the right thing to do is. i want to be your friend, but it really hurt me when you just stopped talking to me and wouldnt tell me why.
c: i know. and i'm really sorry. i'm not good about talking when stuff bothers me and instead i just avoid the situation. i thought i did something and thats why you always bailed on me. i didnt realize you were going thru so much because you never talked to me about it.

i dont know what to do. i mean, i DO. but then i second guess myself....